I love my kids.  They drive me bonkers sometimes, but they mean the world to me.  They are so smart and funny and have a lifetime of adventures awaiting them.  I sometimes feel so much pressure to make sure that they are well rounded, non jaded human beings.  I don't want my daughter to struggle with weight issues like I have most of my life.  I am not sure how to make sure that does not happen.  I never talk about my weight in front of her, and I always tell her how beautiful she is.  I just don't even want her to think about weight.  I just want her to be healthy, and she is.  She is getting more beautiful everyday. 

 I have been having so much fun with the kids these last few years, that I have been dreading the teenage years when Mom and Dad are not so much fun anymore.  I just pray we develop such a good relationship now, that when the teenage years hit, we still can have fun together.  I am looking forward to going on fun adventures with the kids.  Now that I am getting healthier I am looking forward to hiking in the mountains with them, and doing more outdoorsy stuff.  My son wants to sky dive though.  I am not that adventurous. 

Published in: on May 6, 2006 at 4:41 pm  Leave a Comment  


I love Easter weekend. I love the chocolate, love it way to much. But hey I had some self control, and was pretty proud of my self. I used to think that if there was chocolate in my house, it was my duty to eat it, so it will be gone and not tempt me anymore. Do you think I could just throw it away? Oh no. That would be so wasteful! So I ate it and gained 5 pounds I am sure every time.

What I love most about Easter is what it represents. Jesus Christ died and rose again. For me. He loves me that much. That is something I have a hard time wrapping my head around. I am so thankful He was so unselfish. It just is so amazing.

Published in: on April 17, 2006 at 2:40 pm  Leave a Comment  

Spring has sprung! Yeah, right.

Spring, ah Spring.  I think of birds chirping, grass growing again, new life.  Well, it has snowed here more than a foot and a half, and I see no signs of spring.  It is really depressing actually.  But, that is just me.  My kids are in heaven with all this white fluffy stuff to play in.  Perspective is a powerful thing.  The exact same thing happens, and some people are glad, some ticked, and some just stuck in the snow somewhere.  I guess that just makes me think, there really is power in having perspective.  If I focus on how much weight I have lost, I am just so happy.  When I focus on how much I have left, and how I have hit this plateau that I can’t seem to shake, I get really depressed.  I think I will try and choose the happy stuff, and try to avoid the sad stuff.  I mean really, what is the point? 

Published in: on March 21, 2006 at 9:25 pm  Leave a Comment  


I love my family. They are somewhat crazy. But good crazy. Life would really be boring without them. My parents came up to visit for a week. I am thirty one years old and I adore my parents. I love them and appreciate them now more that I ever have in my life. My parents are so supportive and fun. I never ever imagined when I was a teenager that I would have fun hanging out with my parents. Now I look forward to it. My mom and I go on dates together, and shop together. I used to HATE shopping with my mother. She would make me try on horrible clothes that were itchy and full of static. It was pure torture. Now I torment her when she tries on some denim shirt with butterflies embroidered all over it. It is so. much. fun.

The best part about my parents is how much they adore my kids. Every kid needs grandparents like my parents. They will always snuggle, read or play.

I am having a hard time dealing with the fact that I am growing older. It is not to bad watching myself get older, but seeing my parents grow old, and my kids getting so big. I know that I will not have my parents forever. That is unimaginable to me right now. I just have to choose to enjoy each day, not worry about the future, and be thankful for every single minute I have with my family. Sounds like a plan to me. I am off to snuggle my son.

Published in: on March 17, 2006 at 4:28 pm  Leave a Comment