Where did the summer go?

My oh my, the summer did fly. Although, the weather is still quite summery for us Canadians, so I will not complain about that! September is here already, and school has begun. Getting back into the routine of things was a bit of a challenge, but I am almost enjoying it. I am not really enjoying letting my baby go off to Kindergarten, but I guess that is part of life, letting go. (insert big sigh here)

The thing I am excited about is getting into a routine of not eating out on a whim, or eating at my parents on a whim. I am down 96 pounds now. Not as much as I would have liked to lose this summer, but you will not hear me complain about losing 96 pounds. When I am at home in my perfect bubble I have self control. I go out, or over to someone’s house, and *poof* what diet? I am working on it, and getting better, slowly I might add. It has been a good challenge for me, because real life does not involve staying in a bubble all the time. I don’t think that would be much fun either.

Four more pounds to go…wish me luck.

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Published in: on September 9, 2006 at 5:59 pm  Comments (1)  

Juggling

Multi-tasking.  Everyone loves a multi-tasker.  In every job interview I have ever had they ask me if I can multi-task.  I can, and I am quite good at it for the most part.  I love lists, so they get me through it.  But when my list is longer than my arm, I go a little nutso.  I start to lose it, getting bombarded from every direction with expectations and demands.  It sucks.  I want to be a good wife, mother, friend, plus a thousand other things.  I hate saying no, or feeling like I am letting someone down.  The thing about that is, I end up letting my husband or kids down, because they are easier to say no to.  When I end up doing something out of pure obligation, I end up resenting it.  That is why I am slowly but surely figuring out how to say the word no.  I will take some practice, but I am getting better.  I just have to remind myself of that on days like today. 

Published in: on April 7, 2006 at 2:49 pm  Leave a Comment  

Don’t Lose Heart

I was reading my bible on Wednesday morning.  I have been trying to be more faithful with that, it is not always easy to take the time to do that.   Anyway, a verse just stuck out to me.

 2 Corinthians 4:18

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

It really helps with that whole perspective thing I was talking about the other day.  My focus needs to be the big picture, not just the problem right in front of us.  Then as I was driving home yesterday, the little radio devotion was based on this same verse.  It kind of shook me up.  I asked God what he was trying to teach me.  Then I became afraid.  What if something horrible is going to happen, and this verse is supposed to help me through it.  Fear gripped my heart.  I started to panic, thinking, oh God, what are you going to do to me?  Then I remembered something back from my bible school days.  Fear is not from God, if God is trying to show us something, He does not do it by striking us with fear.  He does it in a way that draws us to him.  I had to make a choice right then, not to fear.  Not to be afraid, but to choose life and freedom in Christ.  Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom!  (2 Corinthians 3:17)  God is so faithful and so good.  I am going to try to look at things from His perspective and choose not to fear.  It won’t always be easy, but that’s okay.  I have a Him to lean on and run to. 

 

Published in: on March 24, 2006 at 4:07 pm  Leave a Comment  

Best Friends

My theory is life would really suck without a best friend.  My best friend when I was in Kindergarten was Marla.  She rocked.  She was brave and funny.  I was shy and timid.  She made my whole school experience a lot less scary.  My best friend in high school was a tom boy whose nickname was “Bob”.  She was awesome and outgoing.  We had many adventures together.  We grew apart but still remain friends.  Never move in with your best friend.  It is a great way to kill a friendship. 

My best friend now is an amazing woman who gets me.  I can be me.  I can say something stupid, and she knows what I meant to say.  I can go two weeks without talking to her and she does not think I am mad at her and don’t love her anymore.  I can cry, laugh, whine, pray, complain to, and lean on her.  Not having that?  I can’t imagine.

I have a wonderful circle of friends.  Awesome friends that help make my life rich and full.  I cherish them with all of my heart.  That is a gift from God.  That is a part of my life that helps make it rich and full. 

I do know that some friendships are for a season, and some are for a lifetime.  I am thankful for every one of them.  They helped make me who I am today.  I like that. 

Published in: on March 8, 2006 at 7:35 pm  Leave a Comment  

Perspective

My poor baby girl has a earache.  (okay, she is eight, not really a baby, but she is still my baby)  I hate it when my kids are in pain.  It just makes my stomach turn inside out to see them so uncomfortable.  I want them healthy and happy.  Recently a little girl in my son’s class got diagnosed with leukemia.  A parents worst nightmare.  I can not even begin to imagine the heartbreak involved in wondering every day if your precious little child will live or die this day.  Her parents are so strong, and handling everything so well.  I would be a big blubbering mess.  I think it just shows really how much God does give you the strength to handle each situation as it comes.  Not that it is always easy, but manageable.  Earaches, tummy aches, and everyday problems just seem so small when you think about this poor little girl fighting for her life.  So instead of thinking this morning of how sick kids are turning my day upside down today, I will smooch them, and be thankful I have them to hold.  Perspective is a powerful thing.

Published in: on March 5, 2006 at 4:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

Dumb things to do on a Saturday…

Going to Costco is never a good idea on a Saturday. I LOVE Costco, but I hate it on Saturday’s.  It is like every crazy person in the city goes to Costco on Saturday’s.  Not only that, but they bring their crazy kids too.  Loud crazy kids.  But today, I had to do it.  I had to go, and take my kids.  I know, I am just asking for trouble.  I handled it okay though.  I prepared myself for the chaos, took a deep breath and did it.  A snotty little kid stole the last free snack from my son.  A lady stood in the MIDDLE of the main isle and decided to chat with a friend for 20 minutes while everyone had to squeeze and push around her.  Why did I not lose it and turn crazy like all the other crazies you may ask?  Because I knew what I was in for.  It is amazing what a little planning ahead can do.  I did not get angry, or want to run out screaming.  I guess that is a life lesson.  Plan ahead, take a deep breath, don’t let the crazies make you like them, and most importantly, NEVER go to Costco on a Saturday. 

Published in: on March 4, 2006 at 9:32 pm  Leave a Comment  

We’ve only just begun

Well, here I am.  I have started about ten blogs, and never stick to them.  Seems to be the story of my life.  Starting something and never seeing it through.  Big ideas, great ideas.  Then it fizzles out to be not worth the time and energy.  I don’t want to do that anymore.

I have started to change, so I am pretty sure I can do this.  My life in this past year has changed for the better.  Me deciding to do something and sticking to it.  I want to document my feelings, prayers, funny stories so I can look back and remember where I have come from, and see where I want to go.

 Here we go…..

Published in: on March 3, 2006 at 4:27 pm  Leave a Comment